I’m having a “no hair” day

After having my short style for less than 2 days, I decided it was time to take the plunge and just get rid of the rest since it was falling out and my scalp felt like a million pins pricking it – especially when I tried to sleep.  So I had the lady at the wig store shave it off and then put my wig on.  I didn’t look until I got home tonight. 

I felt like Darth Vader, peeling the protective hat off that was placed under the wig.  As you can see, I have a lovely 2 tone look with my white scalp and darker face.  I think Chemo is good for the skin because my skin is more clear than ever.  It was short of shocking but also liberating to know that I am still me without my hair and that I can do this :).  I was so afraid of the unknown, and in some ways those unknowns are still to come – but now that I have taken the first step, it is a relief to know that I could get through this part. 

I am yet to experience awkward moments when I might not have a hat or hair to cover and come to know how others might react.  But really, it doesn’t matter what they think or say.  This is a necessary part of the healing process to kick this cancer completely out of my system and I am thankful for the modern advances in medicine that allow this to be possible. 

Today is 6 weeks since my reconstructive surgery and it is looking quite good if I do say so myself :).  I did acupuncture again and am feeling great today!  I'm looking forward to a fun weekend in California before I venture back to work next week - starting out part time to see how things go.  I had a nice visit from one of our VP’s today, who was in town from Portland.  It helped me remember what great people I work with and how much I miss them all!

I am touched by the many friends and family who have shown their support and love for me at this time.  I realize more each day how much I have been given during this interesting journey.  At difficult times it may be tempting to ask "why me?" but truly, I counter with the question - "why am I so very blessed?" 

I pray that you are also blessed to feel the love of the Lord that I feel at this time.