Bouncing Back

I am feeling a little better today after a few days of pain.  I still have a few weird sensitivities and issues going on and am a lot more tired than usual but I actually made it to work today, which is always helpful when you have a JOB :).   I’m so glad chemo hasn’t been like this the whole time or it would totally be on my bad list – LOL, I guess it’s not really on the top 10 list of favorites anyway :).  So, Sunday and Monday I virtually did nothing except lay in bed + eat and other necessary life functions.  Some amazing people have been blessing my life, making meals and driving me to Dr. appointments, cleaning and doing laundry.  I am so thankful to you all – hopefully you are reading this!  I was talking to a friend about how I feel disconnected with so many things right now because I am less involved with church, community, and even family activities.  She was kind of laughing at me, thinking I was crazy to be so hard on myself – that I was only going through a process that was trying to kill part of me (the cancer cells) – LOL.  And so my body is trying to figure out how to keep the rest of me living.  I guess she has a point, but it still bugs me :).  I’m not real good at being unproductive and really miss the energy I used to have - being more social,  playing with my nieces and nephews, and even working a long day and feeling like I accomplished a ton.  P.S.  I miss my hair too – I was looking at some pictures yesterday and so wish to have it back.  My whole body is under construction and I know I need to have the patience to see it through to the end.  We are on the home stretch!  Only 38 days and I am done with chemo!    I am drifting off to sleep, so that's all I have to say for now - except that tonight you get 2 quotes for the price of one ;): “In the pain, the agony and the heroic endeavors of life, we pass through a refiner’s fire and the insignificant and the unimportant in our lives can melt away like dross and make our faith bright, intact, and strong."  – James E. Faust “There are times when you simply have to righteously hang on and outlast the Devil until his depressive spirit leaves you.” – Ezra Taft Benson