Time

So I seem to have fared better on chemo round six than five!  Six down - two more to go!  Yes, I am counting down the next 4 weeks until life can begin to start on the path to much more normalcy for me.

 Because my blood counts were so high on Thursday, I was able to opt out of the Neulasta shot on Friday.  I also was prepared with medicine from the Dr. to help get on top of the pain before it started. So I haven't done much the past 3 days except sleep but it has definitely been a better situation than 2 weeks ago.  I think I even lost a couple of pounds from hibernating so much :).  This would be a welcome blessing in the midst of so much warfare on my physical appearance.  My cute nieces and nephews are a bit puzzled by my hair loss and it is hard to explain to a 3 year old that it fell out because I got sick :).  But they have fun touching my head and it makes my day to see them and hug them.  I'm looking forward to some fun times with all 14 of them when we head to the Happiest Place On Earth in a few weeks :).

Although I feel reasonably well, my body is a bit unpredictable and so it's hard for me to make too many big plans or push myself too much right now.  I got up Sunday, with the idea of making it to at least part of church - but when I started getting ready, the stomach issues hit.  So I got back in bed and got caught up on the news and politics instead :).  

This wise counsel from  Ecclesiastes 3 came to mind as I laid in bed most today:
"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:  
a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;" . . .

I'm looking forward to my time to dance again, to live and move the way I want to.  For now, it is time to heal and to learn in a way that only firsthand, personal experience can teach.

I haven't been too social lately.  I don't feel very attractive and it's hard to forge new friendships when my body is going through so much.  I'm thankful to you who are so willing to reach out to me and help me through this, to love and serve me, and in the words of President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "forget me not".  I thank you and am forever indebted to you for your kindess!